Sitting at my laptop today, trying to find the motivation to lift a finger to do anything while the siren song of the couch and surrendering to sleep tugs at me.
There’s a numbness inside me that I can both feel and hear, a soft buzzing sound that’s fuzzy and slightly around my eyeballs. Everything about me feels quiet and pensive, and being even slightly social saps what little energy I have.
I have no concrete reason for feeling this way today but I’m choosing to honor it instead of forcing myself to ignore it and clean the house or go anywhere out of misplaced guilt that belongs to me and me alone. Do you have guilt when you take care of yourself?
Who is putting that pressure on you? For me, it’s projected from my childhood onto my present. It’s society telling me that I’m being lazy and I’m missing out on something.
Lately, I’ve seen a lot of posts, memes and pictures saying self-care is about being
“selfish” and taking a day to yourself.
Let’s do away with that word “Selfish” in relation to caring for ourselves. It is not selfish to care for others so why should it be labeled such when we care for our own precious bodies and souls?
I know for me, this waning feeling will pass and like the moon, once the darkness passes I will begin to regain my spirit and become full, only to repeat the cycle.
As I’ve gotten older I realize that’s just the way of things, I’m learning not to fight it.
What is one thing you will do today to care for yourself? How will you commit to honoring and listening to yourself today and in the coming week?
I’m going to take a nap and then spend some quality time with my beloved, sans technology. ❤
Take care ❤