I am desperately tired today. My heart is painted over with a thin layer of nostalgia and longing to be elsewhere, though I couldn’t tell you where – I almost feel like I’m longing for the bright lights and festive feeling of Christmas, maybe even for a cabin in the mountains buried in snow.
I feel like strolling through antique shops and kitschy stores with handmade goods. I feel like sleeping for days. Perhaps most notably I feel like eating my weight in tasty homemade food and savory snacks. I feel a strong and steady pull toward cozy things.
I feel like solitude is calling me. I feel like buried secrets are becoming truths I must finally admit to myself and they can only be birthed, spoken aloud, admitted to, in a deep internal aloneness. This is the way of women in winter, the cyclical call toward hibernation and going inward.
I am desperately tired today but life doesn’t stop because I need to rest, so I will plaster a vacant smile on my face and head back into work, where hopefully my customer service platitudes and good wishes will see me through the day.
Amanda Soper 
Morning Amanda!
After reading your post thought I would share some thoughts. We all have bad days…with anger, moody, sadness and urges to eat tons of carbs! I also say the winter weather makes it tough to not be depressed with coldness and getting dark so early. For me what helps is mediation, counting my blessings/prayer, and of course exercising 😄🙏🏼 I’m grateful this old body is still able to move and can do Pilates or play Pickleball when I want. Endorphins make a huge impact for my mental status! I also enjoy helping others with understanding wellness and trying to meet their goals. Similar to what you do with your horses. As a teacher we always have to be careful how much we give of ourselves, who refills our cup? I appreciate your honesty lady! Hope this helps and I’m serious about meeting you and Gabe midpoint, choosing a location to hook up and enjoy a good meal 🥰
Take care, Terrell
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