Painting My Soul with Flowers & Magic
Loss as a fact of life, was imprinted upon my subconscious in the tender third year of my life, with the death of my biological father. Though at the time the magnitude was lost on me, it ultimately shaped my perception of life and death, and the fragility of it all. Austin AyersSummer, 2007 Lightening... Continue Reading →
How often do you have trouble getting started on something? For me it goes one of two ways, I'm either hyper-focused on a brand new interest and I dive in head first, guns blazing or I have to do something that doesn't really interest me, or I've lost previous interest, making getting started such a... Continue Reading →
Underachieving I would never consider myself to be an overachiever. I got bad grades all throughout school and once I hit high school I scarcely showed up - what was the point? No, by the metric of general education I was an underachiever for sure. Since then though, I’ve achieved some things; ✨I got a... Continue Reading →
Signs of the returning of the sun are beginning to show around here on the ranch. After weeks and weeks buried under unusual amounts of snow, the frozen hellscape is beginning to thaw and the ground is poking out. Never in my life would I have imagined being so full of joy at the sight... Continue Reading →
The horses call to me. In the depths of sadness, depression, confusion, when I have turned away from my path, they quietly nicker, they softly speak, until I turn around. When my footsteps have carried me too far, when I am lost in the wilderness of all things, they call to me. They sing the... Continue Reading →
Sitting at my laptop today, trying to find the motivation to lift a finger to do anything while the siren song of the couch and surrendering to sleep tugs at me. There's a numbness inside me that I can both feel and hear, a soft buzzing sound that's fuzzy and slightly around my eyeballs. Everything about... Continue Reading →
It’s been a quiet few days here. The calmness of Proceno is soothing. Even with a slight uptick in the holiday “traffic”, we see ten or so people in a day. My favorite hot spot so far, is the grocery store (surprise right?) with its tiny aisles, limited but adequate selection of things, and charming... Continue Reading →
I understand the pain of this garden you find yourself in, and I promise you there is magic on the other side. This pain, is absolutely necessary. There are going to be many doors that will open and you are going to walk through most of them as you find your way. You will find... Continue Reading →
Seeking Magic 